YouTuber John Allen, who accidentally exposed himself as the man behind the video game industry’s “insider” Twitter account, posted an apology video in which he admits to being driven by “influence” and “buzz.”
Allen rose to fame on the internet by leaking details of Ubisoft’s various Assassin’s Creed announcements – details that Ubisoft itself provided to prepare content during the embargo.
But his identity as “TheRealInsider” was revealed over the weekend when Allen responded to a tweet from a fan from his main account. Allen then quickly deleted the tweet, the internal account, before tweeting a brief statement apologizing.
Today’s longer apology goes into more detail via a video on Allen’s main YouTube channel. Here, he points out that the other rumors he’s released are completely fabricated — including hints of upcoming “Silent Hill” and “Metal Gear” remakes that have fans falsely excited.
“I mentioned Silent Hill and [a] Metal Gear Solid Remake, I Can Say No NDA [Non-Disclosure Agreements] Get involved because it’s all bullshit.
“It’s all lies, nonsense second-hand reviews,” he continued. “Half of the posts are educated guesses.”
As to why he leaked the details – even after signing deals with companies like Ubisoft to hear the information ahead of time – Allen admitted that everything he did was to get people’s “attention.”
“I’m ashamed of this,” Allen continued. “It’s sad, it’s just dishonest. A lot of you are outraged and saying, ‘Okay, why the fuck are you doing this?’ Honestly – it’s the influence, it’s the buzz, it’s Indulge in the thrill of thousands of words waiting for you to say.
“I’ve taken for granted my access, my nearly 200,000 subscribers, the flexibility of content, and I’m ashamed, disgusted, and disgusted by this goddamn appearance. Shen feeling. And I’m not making excuses because it’s my fault and nobody else’s fault but me. Because of this, I’ve lost industry friends and lost relationships – personal, business , chance—all those five seconds of fame. And, you know, I take full responsibility.”
So, what’s next for Allen? The YouTuber concluded by saying he’ll stay out of the spotlight for a while — and then refocus on being a “positive force.”
“All I can do from here is try to be a better person, try to learn from this catastrophic mistake, this incomprehensible stupidity…I’m taking a break now, I’m going Get out of it and try to learn from his mistakes and come back with hope, as a positive force, not a negative one.
“Again, I’m probably not going back to Twitter because I’m not popular and I shouldn’t be after what I’ve done. Maybe I’ll be back, but at the end of the day, I’m just sorry. I can’t turn back time, but I All I can do is try to be a better person and move on. I assure you this will never happen again. I will learn from these mistakes.”